Thanks so much for the replies. Yes, I've been depressed mostly since February after a month-long hypomania. That's definitely making this harder to handle. I am on a mixture of meds that worked well before I screwed it up by letting myself go hypo, now I can't seem to level back out, and my anxiety has been really bad. I don't want to change meds because the side effects are ok right now, I just keep hoping I will go back to where I was before January. It's my own fault. I wasn't med compliant, which is very unlike me.