Hi guys, I've also posted this in Psychotherapy, but I'm putting it here too because this has been very destabilizing, and I've been feeling mixed because of it. I know you guys understand how extreme emotions can feel.

I’m feeling really terrible today. Exhausted, guilty, sad, trying to stay hopeful that I will get better.

I have put myself through the hell of disclosing something about myself that I despise – that I sabotage myself for attention. I had to, it is blocking my progress in therapy. I think at this point I’ve processed it as much as I can and should. All signs point to it getting better from here. I need to rest and re-focus on the future. There is hope.

I’m going to make some tea and try to get some work done. I’m going to cry and be with myself as I am, and try to accept myself. I’m going to try to believe that it’s going to be okay.

It’s not okay, but I hope it will be someday. Any support I can get would help a lot right now. Thank you guys for being here.