I feel guilty for even considering it! But, I might do it...

It's something to do with work. I've had this dropped on me at the last minute. Most people probably wouldn't have a problem with it, but I do. I need more time to build myself up for things. If I do it I'll have responsibilities, hiding in the toilets won't be an option.

I don't have to do it. But, I'll have to give a good reason.

Don't know what to do. I know I should push myself out of comfort zone, but there will be no where to hide if things become too much. I need to have more control.

I feel like such a bad person. Devious and unreliable and lazy.