I have oh so many stressors and triggers but one of my main ones is trust too.If someone lies to me it can really send me on a tailspin within a matter of minutes.

I was born and raised in a captive situation,everything I was told and taught about myself and the world was nothing but lies.As a child I knew they were lies but I had to accept them as truth,I had no other choice but to obey.So now when someone lies to me it really,really sets me off.

I have worked on this in therapy,learning to take a step back from that initial reaction,the surge of extreme feelings that cause me to react, and do alot of self talk to remain calm and in control of myself.The trigger is still always there but I am still learning new ways all the time.I have progressed with it,years ago I reacted violently and I don't anymore,but I still am not happy with my reactions.Maybe someday it will change even more.

And I understand what you say about not feeling safe or secure here but I can't let one bad apple spoil the bunch.