This may be a rather silly question. And in fact, just writing it made me face palm a little..

But anyway, between sessions, I always find myself googling away, searching for some kind of connection or answer with/for something. Therapy doesn't come easy to me, I am not exactly in touch with my emotions, or thoughts.. And talking is definitely not my forte. But every now and then, I find something that feels somewhat relevant to what is going on.

Example - I have also had feelings of anxiety, dating way back. But I can't bring myself to say "hey, yeah I get anxiety a fair bit". It has taken a good 9 months of struggle therapy for the T to go hey, that's anxiety! And I sit there like, tell me something I don't know.. But at the same time, I am somewhat relieved that she has figured it out..

It was the same thing with my depression, I told my GP I 'wasn't feeling great', and SHE suggested depression and sent me on my way to therapy and all sorts. Meanwhile, I've probably been aware of this 5+ years prior.

This is an unrealistic expectation that I have toward other people. For whatever reason, I expect/long for them to figure me out. I want them to prove they give enough of a crap to notice my efforts to hide away.

Does anyone else do this? Should I stop doing this? Should I be telling my therapist of this? I do not understand this process or myself for that matter!!