Ah, this is one hundred percent my fault. I shouldn't have let it get so bad, but I guess it started with my best friend's brother dying (suicide). Before that I let work build up, I had assignments overdue but I was working on them. But then he passed away and it went rapidly down hill. My mood plummeted etc and I lost all motivation + BPD and up and down moods and reckless behaviour and just a whole load of crap.

Anyway, I'm really struggling getting back into working. I've got an exam in two weeks and I'm not too worried about that. But I have a total of 5 assignments over due that need to be in within the next couple weeks..

I am so stressed and tired and I'm trying to sort my mental health out, and my college are already being so lenient with me. And I already skipped an exam because I had a panic attack, and the college has rescheduled it for me. But oh my god. Whenever I think about the work, I want to break down into tears and I have no idea what to do.