Can't say I've really done that. I knew I was depressed and told my therapists directly. I knew I had been abused and told my therapists directly.

For me, it wasn't that I wanted therapists to figure me out; it was that I wanted them to help me find a way through. It wasn't that I wanted therapists to "fix" me (they can't do that really); it was that I wanted them to help me figure out how to get to a place where I no longer felt broken. But I always knew that was work no one could do for me; I had to be active in figuring myself out and making whatever changes were necessary to find a place of healing.

It doesn't sound like you don't understand yourself; you said you already knew you had anxiety problems for a long time. It sounds like you may want to be rescued a bit. Is that it? I hear that when you wrote "I expect/long for them to figure me out. I want them to prove they give enough of a crap to notice my efforts to hide away."