Hello people.

I do not have Schizophrenia or have not been labelled as such by a professional, but I think it might be worth sharing how I have been feeling for quite a while.

Since I was 16-17 years old I developed a sudden change in thought patterns and health anxiety. Then I developed depression due to the health anxiety, did not have treatment for it until finally this year I was prescribed Sertraline which I take daily and now the depression as well as the health anxiety lifted.

But the thought blockage is still present and its getting worse, I have done a thread which explains the thought blockage in a bit more detail: https://forums.psychcentral.com/othe...inda-back.html

I do not have hallucinations and I am not really worried about developing Schizophrenia, but I really really really don't want to be diagnosed with it or to be viewed as some crazy psychopath by crazy people, I don't want to live with the stigma and the horrible meds that they make you go on. I'm not saying my life is hard but I already have a lot on my plate and developing Schizophrenia would prevent me from living a normal life.

Hope you don't mind me asking but do any of you Schizophrenics noticed that your thinking patterns have changed? Do you notice that you think differently and that normal people can think clearly? Is it hard to think?

My thoughts are the cogs, thinking is rotating the lever to make the cogs work- but I cannot rotate the lever because it is stuck and my cogs are moving by themselves very fast. My thoughts are very fast and they are getting more and more weird, I don't know. Its very hard to explain.

If you are able and want to explain how your thinking works it would be awesome if you explained it. Because it would really help me to find out whats going on.

Don't know what I am doing anymore, hopefully its just the way I am and its not anything serious.