Trust isn't that much of an issue for me anymore because I've grown to accept that all humans are liars and I always suspect hidden motives out of everybody that I meet anyways. I figure if somebody wants to be my friend than their words are pointless anyways; all that ever matter to me is people's actions.
What does trigger me is certain loud noises such as somebody banging on my door, honking a horn loudly, an infant screaming, or police sirens. Hearing these noises makes me agitated and sends me into survival mode.
Another thing that triggers me is people not giving me my space. If I'm alone trying to think or focus or calm myself down and somebody barges in and tries to talk to me I feel like getting physical with them.
A 3rd thing that I've only been learning about recently is seeing things become more of an inconvenience or struggle for the poor. Things such as increasing food prices, expensive late fees on Apt. rentals or overdraw fees on banks, harder time getting medical or mental health care, or jobs discriminating against somebody who has long gaps in their work history due to health or some other reason and needs a job to pay for their living expenses are all examples of things that make me angry. In fact, I have literally developed a burning hatred and malice towards those in power and I wish death upon them every day for this very reason but I won't get into that.
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