Last week I emailed my HR rep telling her I really need to take some time off to recuperate because my symptoms are so severe right now, I'm extremely agitated, so much so that I was shaking all day long and I don't drink a lot of caffeine, and none after noon. But all day long the shakes. Trying to keep myself from physically collapsing and dissociating every day at work, but I have SO much work to do, and the pace is just insane right now, but I need to be able to take a sick day. But I was afraid to take sick time because last time I worked from home for being ill was when my boss reprimanded me for not coming in.

Anyways, the HR rep talked to my supervisor and they both agreed that I needed to take a few days off and they would work together to make that happen. I didn't have any external meetings on Thursday and Friday, so I managed to get that off. I only worked a half day yesterday because after a certain time I didn't have any more meetings and all my meeting prep work was done. I asked my boss to go to an external meeting for me, and she was happy to do so. I was supposed to do a half day today only because I couldn't get out of this presentation I was supposed to do to the City, but I managed to get it pushed back to the July agenda. So even though I worked a few hours this morning, I"m basically off work until Monday.

I really need this time off, not just to rest and sleep, but to do some things like artwork, reading, going to the park, etc., to recharge.

So then I get back on Monday and will work the whole week, hopefully, but then I get a five day weekend thanks to July 4th, because our CEO gave us all the 3rd as a holiday so we could have 4 days off, and I had already requested the 5th off, so I will get another break.

I am very happy to not have to deal with work for a bit. I think when I come back I will have a better attitude and feel refreshed. That's the goal anyhow.

When we looked at how much PTO I had, we realized I hadn't taken a day off since the holidays. And that includes working almost every Saturday and Sunday too...so there was no wonder I was on the verge of physical collapse and that my depression and PTSD were physically manifesting.

So happy...today is just going to be rest and relax. Chill, watch some Netflix, take the dogs to the park and pick up my Rx. Feeling really relaxed right now and enjoying it.

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