Thank you all very much. You've made me feel a bit better 'bout myself.

Ok, warning, this is gonna be all about me. Content may be totally boring to others.

Let me recall my life:
2 alcoholic parents
Raising siblings
Taking care of parents
Death of grandma, aunt and mama all in one year
4 hospitalizations
physical and sexual violence
sexual violence by pdoc
was told by pdoc he gave the fatal Final Exit suicide injection to his mother
addiction
poverty
divorce
depression/anxiety/PTSD
clean x 5 years
relapse
education, education and more education
nurse (ER and psych)
safety engineer (wonder why I went in to safety?!)
in love with man going thru divorce and I work with him
have lost all the weight I need to lose and now men are asking me out right and left and I don't know how to deal
with it (and why didn't they ask me out when I was overweight?)
100 years of Catholic guilt
Christmas is my favorite time of year and hardly feel like putting up a tree
want to be supportive here but don't have it to give right now, but I think of all of you each day

If you got this far, thanks so much for letting me share, and reading about it.
Love to all,
Okie