So about two months ago I decided to clean up by getting back on meds, stop two addictions and try to grow up a bit.

Ive been able to get back to work 50% of the time, taking meds that have worked in the past (Lithium and Lamictal), and Ive started to go to gamblers anonymous which Im enjoying and lowered my weed smoking by 90%.

Stopping gambling is easy as Im broke and I frigging hate it now as my losses have been so massive and so idiotic, but I need to address it, as it can rear its head down the road.

I havent smoked weed for two days and want to make a good run to get it out of my system as want to apply for new jobs and also sick of wasting money and brain cells on it.

Im still depressed, but not a zombie like I have been the last six weeks. Im more of like in FML mode as I literally have no life.

While Im getting better, I have two new problems in my car having huge issues. I put 1000 into a repair two weeks ago, which I had to borrow for and now yesterday something is wrong with it again and need to take back to shop. Also having a medical issue that is not related to mental issues that is making me lose work and sleep. I probably have to surgery on my bent as hell nose to alleviate serious throat and saliva issue.

I know life is about problems, but FFS Im trying to get better, but the two problems I have are making the address of my mental problems so much harder and I have to work as now floundering more into debt.