Hello Aar: I'm sorry you are confronting this most difficult situation. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support.

I see this is your first posts here on PC. So... to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!

P.S. The other forum you might consider posting in is the men's support forum:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/men-focused-support/

I wish you well...