I have had bi polar symptoms for about 15 years. And they have helped and hindered me in equal measures.#
My doctor actually doesn't believe in too many meds for mental illness. The least you can get away with the better.
Benzo's are quite good for mania, I know they are addictive but are much less heavy duty than anti-psychotics.
I can get away with one tablet - quetiapine when it boils down to it, sorry it doesn't suit you.
I am sceptical about clozapine but I think it is a good all rounder for mood, sleep and mania and depression. It is a double edged sword, as you have to consider do the benefits out weigh the risks?
I forget I am not a doctor.
But yes there is a book called the bi-polar advantage. We are more creative, driven etc.