Hi T-S,

I kind of wish someone would make me have an appointment with prevT. I was looking in my diairy the other day and realised that I haven't seen her this year. It's at least 6 months ago since our last session. I just can't. It's my, what is it, stuborness?
It has been a little over 14 months since she went on leave. It has been about 9 months since she has been back at work. I've seen her about 4-5 times. And then I didn't went to that last session. And I haven't make a new appointment.

It has been more than a year and I'm still not over those feelings her leave stirred up in me. I don't know what to do. The past year it hasn't gone better with me. I don't feel better. I feel worse. Hopeless. I don't think I can get better.