Thanks everyone for the kind words and encouragement!

My new car repair is 800 which I have to borrow again. I cant do anything about it, but take a few days off work to wait and get back at it. I did have a nice 4 mile walk home by the weed store and did not crumble. I also had great energy for the walk which I feel leads me to believe the meds are working as I had no energy for all of May and half of June.

I will keep on pushing forward. My next step is to deal with my nose. I have a deviated septum and I breath with my mouth open when I sleep which causes a lot of problems. Ive put it off for years but cant take it anymore. I think I dealt with it before by smoking massive amounts of weed to make me pass out and now Im sober and sleep is not as easy.

I guess I will embrace one day at a time and if not in addiction its a good day!