im actually more comfortable working with a male rather than a female. I don't know what it is but I just can't talk to women about things from my past. Any time I have tried to open up to any woman about it all I get is "well youre not the only one. Ive had that stuff too" and its like they wont just sit down and listen to me, they always have to one-up me and make my problems seem small. One woman T I went to when I was about 13 totally made me feel like a 5 year old and was so condescending towards me. Every guy T I have ever been to doesn't treat me like that. Maybe it's just a few bad experiences with me but I seriously cannot find a girl to just talk to.

I actually had someone say that to me once. She was telling me how sarcastic and evil I am and I tried to tell her all the things Ive gone through to make me so sarcastic and thats just how I deal with pain - through jokes. So instead of saying "ok i understand but can you please refrain from it around me" she said "youre not the only one who has been to the bottom of the barrel. and you dont have to be a total *****. I have gone through worse stuff than that". Sometimes I just want to slap people and say "not EVERYTHING is about you."

sorry.... another little rant.