Thank you very much for sharing.

I think we have our stories flipped. As I've said back then, F has been reluctant to admit any of this, from her incapability to cope with life properly and my role in this distressful situation because that would mean that she cares about me way too much, and knowing her as I know me, she will think caring portrays some level of weakness.

From my perspective as the older between the two, as I have older sisters myself, I would be inclined to think that perhaps the reason your brother has been very distant the last years is that he feels very guilty and somehow responsible for everything that has happened to you, the fact that he couldn't save you. That would certainly make me feel in denial since I shouldn't have had any reason to protect her from our own family in the first place! All that untreated anger and indignation against a parental figure that I had to redeem and fail...

Still, I hope things work out for you. Whatever reason (he thinks) he has to push you away doesn't worth it—hopefully, he'll realise that soon. I don't know what I'd do without my sisters. They're everything to me.

I agree on this—and you should try it too. Everyone breaks. Cheers.