In my case, I have never truly healed. I divorced my abuser 21 years ago, and I am still very much afraid of him. I had two small children who were in danger and that helped to give me the courage to leave. I am better now through LOTS of counseling, but there is still so much more room for improvement. I hope you can find a little peace once this is truly over. My self esteem has truly suffered from the situation, but I have always tried to look ahead to there being better times.