Why can I not keep my mouth SHUT!!!

Why can't I regain control, once it starts to slip?

Nothing changes - ever! Oh, sure, I might have a calm period for a few days, but let's face it, the old pattern ALWAYS return.

I learn as much as I can about my illness; practice what pdocs and therapist teach; willingly subject myself to countless meds that affects negatively on my body, yet do nothing to help balance my brain chemicals; I've endured electrocutions (ECT), and what is the ultimate result??

NOTHING!