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Old Jun 22, 2017, 12:33 PM
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Originally Posted by zoiecat View Post
Personally my therapist lets me record all of my sessions now only because I dissociate so bad that I can't remember anything that is said. It sounds like you want a recording to kind of have a crutch or memento of your therapist to listen to and that may be why she only wants you to be able to record a small snippet so that you won't constantly ruminate and use that to rely on rather than learning ways to cope by yourself. I would suggest thinking up a topic that you want to discuss that you feel she's going to respond in a way that you want to hear. Then you can start recording bring up your topic and hopefully she'll respond in the way you want. That will be what you'll be able to listen to. It may be a good idea to bring up the subject of why you feel you need the recording of her voice to get by between sessions that way she's answering that question for you because that's what you're struggling with. Either way she wants you to do the work so whether that's finding a coping mechanism in between sessions on your own or coming up with a topic that you want to discuss in therapy to get you the end result of a recording you want. Good luck to you I know it is always difficult
We just switched from sessions every other week to sessions once every 4 weeks. I do pretty good the first 2 weeks. Third week, I fall apart. Our goal is to get me to make it through the 4 weeks without a breakdown. We just set up a scheduled phone call at the 3 week point. That is a crutch. The recording will be like a transitional object. It will help me cope.

I didn't force my T into agreeing to make a recording. I brought up the idea and she said yes. She has already given me a card and a rock, and she's thinking about maybe getting me a small stuffed animal. She'd rather me have these things so I can cope on my own rather than her have to step in and help.

I suffer from extreme fears of abandonment. Distancing out our sessions is supposed to help me become less dependent on her, and re-write my story (so I can no longer truthfully say that everyone has abandoned me). This is hard work for me.
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