Hello Tkb: I'm an older person & I struggle with anxiety. I'm not on any medications of any kind at all. (I have been in the past. But they never did much of anything for me.) You mentioned you're supposed to do meditation at home. But you wrote you're bad about it.

I have done sitting meditation in the past (which is what I presume you've been told to do.) I haven't found it to be beneficial to me. Instead I have found walking meditation & yoga (done mindfully) to be much preferable. I do two hours of yoga-type exercises daily. By the time I'm done... I feel cool as the proverbial cucumber, as they say. Over the course of the day, my anxiety comes back, of course. But I believe it would be much worse if I wasn't doing my "practice".

If you're not familiar with Dr. Jon Kabat-Zinn's book: Full Catastrophe Living I would highly recommend it to you. It details the stress reduction program that was (& presumably still is) offered at the University of Massachusetts Medical Center. There's a chapter on mindful yoga. And there's also a paragraph where Dr. Kabat-Zinn talks about a patient who came to the program who was so full of anxiety she simply couldn't sit still. The one thing she found she could do was the walking meditation. So that's what she did. I don't know as it cured her in all likelihood. But it apparently helped when nothing else worked.

Anyway, it sounds as though you may be trying some new med's. Hopefully they will help. But if not, or if you find yourself wanting more, you might consider looking further into developing a yoga practice & / or doing walking meditation. I wish you well...