I feel guilty because I feel like if I tried harder to control my moods maybe my husband wouldn't have turned to drugs. I feel like I made life so difficult for us that the addiction was a way for him to cope. Maybe he'd still be alive if I had t deliberately chased mania and all the ****** stuff I did.
I know none of that's true. I know the addiction wasn't my fault. But sometimes I still wonder. But I don't get hung up on it. I work on it in therapy too.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real?
-Albus Dumbledore
That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it
f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have.
-Garden State
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