i think i may be shutting down...

i just feel like whats the point...?
i want to get better, i do..
but maybe this is as good as its going to get...

maybe instead of imagining and thinking of how much better things could be...
i should just forget about it and just accept the way things are...
this is how i am... how i probably will always be

im feeling not like talking about things very much anymore...
not feeling very motivated...
i just dont want to acknowledge anything anymore...
thinking maybe i have already talked too much...

just thinking that maybe i should be ok with the way things are...
maybe its the only way for me to find a little rest and peace...

im no one special after all..

i dunno... it is what it is i guess...
just thought i would let everyone know incase i disappear...