When I'm at home and imagine talking to my T I'm so direct and calmly sharing it all. When I'm actually with my T, I feel like my words had died and I can't say anything clearly. But I have a T who will never ever will "figure me out" because his method is to give me the whole of the responsibility of everything...Which sucks because I'd like him to draw some conclusions. But he will never do that...Also it would make me feel validated and I need that.
I'm trying to get something out of this though, for now...