I find this really offensive. People constantly tell me how smart I am, how verbal I am and how they see nothing wrong with me. Still I have four things that each on its own would give me full time disability! Still I guess I look bright and shiny...

How should I look to make people understand that I simply can't work? I have put all my projects aside, all my energy goes toward simple chores to keep me alive. And I should still WORK???

Please tell me how I must appear for people to UNDERSTAND! I can't make myself dumber and less verbal, but I can pretend I guess. I could start mumbling and stuttering and make no sense. How can I express my constant state of anxiety/fatigue/exhaustion/pain/lack of sleep/distrust/hopelessness so you can see it on the outside? Should I wear a t-shirt with that stuff printed on it?

No, I do not WANT to work with all this. I am indeed HESITANT to try, since I know it would basically KILL ME. I will die soon enough anyway.

I act nice with people IRL, I take interest in their lives, I smile, I don't whine (I save that for online)... and obviously I'm getting punished for it. I guess I should just be an *** to scare people away with their dumb questions.

Not working can make you feel really useless. Don't add to it. Please.