hey t. i've been staying off PC lately but I needed to put this somewhere so I wouldn't email it to you so here it is. this evening was a bit of a train wreck, i must say. i wanted to sit in front of you today and feel strong and celebrate a little, before we get to much farther into the difficult work of separating from each other. but you made me start feeling it and i wasn't ready to share that just yet damn you and i got frustrated and began acting out like a brat. especially after you said that you had started grieving the loss.

At least we managed to set the date for our ending. November. After we've reached the 6 year mark. that is pretty much what I had been thinking, so i was glad you were in agreement there. I am just weird like that. i want to be able to say we made it 6 years ha ha.

leaving you is gonna be the hardest thing i've done in a very long time.