Hello Ofeelia, I see this is your first post so welcome to PC!

I hope you find your time here to be of benefit. Once you have 5 approved posts, you will be able to use the chat room and talk to fellow members. There is almost always someone online to chat with.
I can certainly understand your frustrations regarding the stigma of this illness. I was diagnosed with BPD quite a few years ago, though I fortunately didn't deal with the symptoms that are the most stigmatized (fear of abandonment, extreme mood swings like rage, etc). Still, I did deal with some stigma from certain psychiatrists and it certainly didn't feel good! I no longer meet the criteria for BPD but even if I did, I'd probably keep my mouth shut about that diagnosis and just go with "depression and anxiety", because those two are more easily accepted and understood.