I don't know what's worse, being alone or being around a bunch of self centered phonies.
I always felt that if you don't like people then you haven't met the right ones yet.
Learning how to live with oneself is a hard thing to do. I do believe we are social animals
to begin with. BUT , there is something to be said for being able to enjoy ones own company without the distractions. Hang in there. I think people who can be happy alone , and not in the selfish sense , of not caring , can come to understand and feel life more intensely than the robotic societal creature.
Maybe those you lost weren't worth having around to begin with ?