Firstly

Today I learnt (again) that I can only control what I feel and what I think. That others' opinions or thoughts, actions, I cannot do anything about.

Given that is true, and at this very moment I believe that is true. Apparently I have to work on my selftalk and things I think I can fix related to me and how I view things. That's hard stuff.

I'm not sure if I can pull that off. I have a psychologist that seems to think he can give me strategies to "alter" my interpretations and triggers so the resulting "feeling" is not as negative and devastating for me. This is yet to be seen but as I said at *this moment* I am hopeful.

I hope you feel better soon and that people around you can cut down on triggering negativity and make it easier for you to interpret things in a positive light. I hope you can find someone who is willing and has skills that can help you avoid having lowpoints.

I am standing here with you hoping you can move forward.