So just out of second stay in ED residential treatment for Bulimia and also diagnosed with Bi polar, depression is treatment resistant.... I am irritable.. Tired, angry, hurt... The Facility I was at in Florida was horrible and made me worse....

I am a former Marine, Marathon Runner, drug addict , sky diver, I ride Harley Davidson's ... ( on my 4th).. And had several bad wrecks... I have tried to go to College ( can't, my brain doesn't work well enough to finish, can't think in complete thoughts)....I buy self help books left and right, read and color... Regardless.... My main issue is that I binge and purge, lots and lots.. My bulimia Is and has been my life... I have done a lot in my life to try and recover and heal myself and it hasn't worked... I still suffer and make everyone around me miserable.... And I DONT WANT THAT !!!!! I am tired of hurting my family
So now I am considering ECT
I have a wonderful man who doesn't understand and tries, and I am just tired, and my body is broken... Does ANYONE have any experience with this? Please