Well... This was my *gulp* 12th hospitalization in 6 years.
On the us side, I think I gained a new sense of being from being treated differently in there. Rather than staff being reactive to my behaviors, and thus causing more behaviors, it was all a non-issue. What a difference. That and being in DBT I think are making this time different. I feel calmer I think. Plus there was some natural integration of DID selves during some personal work. And my meds got changed up over the last few months, even as late as last week.
Lamictal went up
Zoloft went up
Started mirtazapine
Got off trazodone
Now they are checking one more medical issue- see if I'm having absent seizures. I'll have an EEG.
I'm certainly more dissociative with the integration, but I think I am overall more stable and my thinking isn't as chaotic. I'm employing more choice more often rather than letting emotions take the helm.
Thanks for asking and sharing!
Kiya