Hey there,

So I was just wondering, I go through mood swings mostly down down down
sometimes I get hyper usually for a day sort of overly happy.Most days I'm numb
no real feelings but I can put on a front. I'm in a constant state of worry.
My thoughts get to much over analysing then I sort of shutdown and stare blankly for long periods.

My anxiety has got to the point where I'm shaking and I have to literally
hold my leg down because they're bouncing. My speech goes slow and I can't hear. I've been having well break downs randomly crying. Not eating or sleeping not showering mostly because I'll break down.

I'm extremely empathic but also extremely callous/cold theres no middle ground. My temper puts me into a kind of tunnel vision, my whole demeanour changes, its mostly my eyes they go lifeless or dark. I can justify what Im planning and there's no remorse it makes me smile sort of.

I started recently started back on medication again. My anxiety is down, the depressed part is down which is good because it effects my judgement. I feel better but still numb.

So is right now my personality? Black and white no grey and numb.