Hello deschroma, I see this is your first post so welcome to PC! I hope you find your time here to be of benefit. Once you have 5 approved posts, you will be able to enter the chat room and talk to fellow members. There is almost always someone online to chat with.

I agree with Jennifer, it is time to be honest with your psychiatrist about this so they can re-evaluate you. If you don't already see a therapist I would encourage you to get one so you can work through this. If you do have Munchausens, therapy will help you and medication may not (it might even make things worse, as you have mentioned playing with meds to induce mania). I wish you all the best.