Oh yes... this is something I'm intimately acquainted with. I'm 69 years young now! And all of my life (& even now) I feel as though I cannot be the person I really am. I'm not allowed. (I don't even allow myself much less anyone else.) In fact, I don't even know who that person would be.

Every once in a while, I get this surge of emotion & I think... screw everything & everybody... I'm going to finally at long last become the real me! But then I come back down to reality & realize how unrealistic that is & how I don't even know who I would be if I did that. So then I just forget about it again.