I've posted several threads in the last few weeks about how very depressed and despondent I was. I thought I'd give you a positive update.

I saw my pdoc yesterday and was actually crying and sobbing in her office. I was having a hard time making eye contact. She and my husband were talking about what we could all do to avoid the hospital.

Today I wake up and feel good! My head feels clear and I feel like making plans. I'm not off the couch much but I did get a shower and wash my hair so I am ready for anything I'm able to do tomorrow.

Tomorrow I have a few things I could do: go to church, see an uncle, get nails done, and go out to dinner with out of town friends. However, if I wake up and feel dark again, I don't have to do any of it.

I had a phone session yesterday with my tdoc. Nice person that she is, she asked me to text her every day till I talk to her again and let her know how I am. Today I texted her and told her I felt good. She wrote back that sometimes the cycle just "breaks" on its own. I'm also wondering about the increase last week in meds: from 2.0 to 3.0 of Rexulti and from 100 to 300 mg of Wellbutrin.

I'm really enjoying feeling slightly elevated today, but negative person that I am, I am worried about tomorrow. How will I feel? Is it okay to make plans with other people for a few days out? Or is that black cloud going to return?

But you know, even a day's break is a blessing.