I read both your responses, went to the links (and saved them) and got overwhelmed, so I didn't check back here till now.
I need help, the thing happened again where I just let myself be abused, ignored my feelings and isolated myself, and then the other half of the time I forgot about it without meaning to and now I'm stuck again. I can't stop having flashbacks and I'm trying to think with a level head and absorb all your words and kind responses but it's really hard to face the reality of my situation, and I can't stop crying. All the options I have run through my head and I can't help but mentally go over each end every possible thing that can happen....

I want to try finding a therapist but I'm not sure how much good it will do while I'm stuck here. I don't know if I should call a therapist for ptsd and agoraphobia, or try contacting my local domestic violence shelter for a counsellor. Because I don't just need therapy- I need help figuring out how to budget, manage my time, how to do everything an adult should know before they leave the house. and I'm afraid that I won't be able to afford even low income housing, a phone bill and internet, and I don't know if I'll be able to take my dog and she's the only being that can ground me and make me feel a sense of purpose. I'm really scared and don't know what to do first, and I just can't stop crying

Also, the kicker is that my mom works for a volunteer group that helps one of the local DV shelters so I emotionally feel like it's not an option even if it may have good resources.