I know people ask questions all the time about their disorders, etc. I'm not seeing a therapist right now because my insurance is terrible and I can only afford to see my psychiatrist once a month. And even this month I have to shell out like $200 extra for her to complete some paperwork for me. But I have some strange symptoms and I was hoping maybe someone here would have some ideas.

For background: I have been diagnosed with chronic severe treatment resistant Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD, PMDD, GAD, and mild agoraphobia. All those combined equals lots of sleep disturbance, including a lot of nightmares and frequent sleep paralysis.

I have tried way too many meds to count, but currently I'm on Effexor, Zoloft, Xanax PRN, Vistiril for sleep, birth control, and Prazosin as a PRN for sleep/nightmares.

Anyways, the past week or so I have noticed myself having momentary disorientation, like one morning listening to the radio they were talking about the president, and I honestly thought they meant Barack Obama. And not like I was confused, I literally thought it was 2012. I've been having other moments like that where I'm confused as to what day of the week it is, like I have to ask someone, and it's not just like when you casually ask "what day is it?" because you're tired. I LITERALLY do NOT know what day it is or think it's a different day of the week. Same thing with what year it is, what house I live in - like I wake up and don't know where I am because I remember living in a different apartment or house from a previous time in my life.

I will also admit that I have had a very calm feeling of suicidal ideation lately, contemplating what it would be like to take a few too many pills and just drift off (but it's just ideation, I would never harm myself like that).

My psychiatrist believes I may have obsessive compulsive disorder, primarily because of exorciation - skin picking, not sure if that's important.

Could this confusion and disorientation be attributed to my depression or PTSD? Of course I have flashbacks, but that feels more like, I feel like the situation I'm in is being transformed into a prior terrifying situation. These moments of disorientation are not like that, I mean, sometimes there is fear, but when I have a flashback, I still know where I am, I just feel my mind playing a trick on me.

Do you think this is a normal symptom of depression or PTSD or one of my other diagnoses?

Thank you!
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