Hey. I wasn't sure where to put this, so I figured General Q&A would be best. I am diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, Anxiety and I've suffered with depression all my life really.

I won't go into detail at all because I understand talking about suicide isn't usually allowed on forums. But that happened a few days ago, I was treated all fine and medically okay.

The issue is, I don't feel safe, I don't feel okay and if they came to me and said 'we need to admit you' I would have readily agreed. In all honest, I'll take what I can get with the NHS Mental Health system. I've been in the system since I was about 12 (20 now) and it's barely helped.

Anyway, the meeting I had at the hospital ended with me running out of the room crying and almost fainting as I got lost on my way back to my bed etc. I was a mess. And the mental health team sent me home with a phone number to ring if I get bad again and a website to go to for information.

Baring in mind I just tried taking my own life, I told them I wasn't safe and this has previously happened where I have wound up back in hospital less than two weeks later. I am honestly so upset and forgive any typos in this as my hands are shaking. I got home yesterday (overnight in the hospital) and I haven't left my bed since. My mother doesn't want to leave me alone and I've not eaten in three days. I'm honestly a mess and I want help but I have no idea what to do anymore. I feel like I'm grasping at straws and there just isn't anything left for me to do anymore.

I'm at a loss and so is my mother; she has to go back to work tomorrow. She took time off to look after me before but her work is so close to firing her because of the time she's taken off. I am planning on going into college to speak to my counsellor there- since they've been more helpful than anyone.. but I'm terrified and my anxiety is really bad right now.

Does anyone else have experience with the NHS Mental Health system (UK)? What can I do?

- Sorry if this is in the wrong forum or not appropriate or whatever.. I just want some advice and some guidance.