I do have a similar experience, and I absolutely hate it because during my depressed state, I sometimes feel unloved, unwanted, dislikes, irrelevant (though others are showing the opposite, it's just my thoughts and feelings while depressed) and as a result of that I become withdrawn and I want to be left alone. So I stop answering phone calls, texts, when people visit i stay in my room. I decline any and all invitations (mainly because I don't want to be awkward, the "Debbie downer" and don't have the energy to fake it. Therefore, I'm pushing people away. Ironically, I feel very lonely. During my hypo manic state, I return to these people but that also feels awkward because of how I acted before.

Thanks for posting and giving me an opportunity to share with you.!