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Jun 25, 2017, 10:38 AM
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This keep nagging me. When the HR director worked out with my supervisor to get me some time off to rest, the HR director was talking to me and said, "I said to her "This isn't the Seesaw that I know...""
I know she meant that like, I'm normally a lot more cheerful (I guess?) or vibrant, not as worn down? I'm not sure what she meant by that. Because I don't feel like anything in me has changed except maybe I'm not doing as good a job hiding my symptoms. So, for me to be accepted, I have to pretend that I'm not ill, albeit, mentally ill?
I appreciated that she meant she noticed there was a difference and I was overwhelmed with stress, but I'm also, I dunno, irritated, that the difference is based on me stigmatizing myself by pretending that I'm always okay.
I don't know...
Seesaw
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Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder
Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia.
Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien
Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less...
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