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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote
I've had many limitations, the physical conditions along with BP II and c-PTSD.
This all limits how much and how often I can participate. I seem to use up any energy I have in simply attending to my marriage and helping my elderly mom who lives with us.
More energy would be helpful for getting in socialization.
That said, I also feel a bit awkward in large social groups. I've had some very insensitive remarks made to me because I am "disabled." Some people think one cannot be disabled an intelligent.  I also tend to feel somehow inadequate and "marked," like a tattoo on my forehead sets me apart. My life is not "normal" and I feel awkward in some groups.
How do I stop the cycle?
I'm not sure. If I did not have challenging physical/medical issues, it might be easier to have more energy to do more? Right now, my meds also have a lot of side-effects to endure. I lose my balance quickly. If/when I can take on extra, I think it's best to "just do it!"
I need to think more about this. Great topic!
WC |
WC I'm sorry you've been made to feel this way in social settings. Unfortunately our society can be so very judgmental. I find you highly intelligent and informative and always look forward to reading your posts
Another thought on this social avoidance topic, would being on the right med combo help this? Like I'm not on anything at the moment and I'm either "on" or "off" socially. I'm either looking up bands coming up in my area or a bar to go to with friends (not that they want to go that's just my happy state) or I decline all invites. Rare is the even day where I socialize normally (like yesterdays lunch out with my friend).
I also wonder this.....when I have socialized in a really fun way, activity I haven't done in a long time or one that makes you feel young
then after there's this huge let down. Again that all or nothing mentally.
Have no idea if I'm making any sense lol