I want to apologize I'm scared of retaliation or that they won't accept it. I won't use my being bipolar as an excuse I am responsible for my actions bit it is a cause and I wish people would truly understand what mental illness really is.

What makes you afraid to make amends? I mean, it will be difficult but it sounds like the right thing to do.

If you don't try to make amends they can conclude that you don't want to make amends because you said what you really thought and you don't care to change anything. The tension will remain indefinitely and healing will not occur.

If you decide to apologize, think about which of them will likely be the most forgiving and consider whether to approach them first. Do not use bipolar disorder, or any other physical or mental disorder that you may have, as an excuse or explanation. If you do, you will not be owning the words and the apology will come across as insincere.

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