So..it's been a couple months(started around march, which is when I started restricting food Intake. This might be the reason but I have had episodes before I started restricting, but they have recently started up again and are worse) since I've been getting really bad anger mood swings out of nowhere. Anything can trigger it. Mostly I'll get mad at myself for something really stupid and simple things. But I'd yell at myself, hit and cry. And it's like this voice in my head that is just screaming at me and I'll swear at myself under my breath, but it's not me...but after these episode are done I'm extremely sad, suicidal even if it's really bad...I get so upset that I usually can leave my bed the next day or finish any of my school work...like all my energy is sucked out of me...
I don't know how to deal with this other "personality." (I guess that's what'll I'll call it.)
I'm too scared to tell my parents or go to a doctor, I'm afraid of medication honestly and therapy..scared it'll make everything worse...
If someone is/has gone through this or knows what going on, id really appreciate the help.
Thank you.