I'm not lost, but thanks for sharing your experience. Somehow my mind shut out the stairs for two whole weeks and only now I'm discovering pathways that something wants me to take. I think they are routes to another, parallel reality.

On Wednesday I meet the school counselor and I talk to my tdoc on the phone. I'll let them know what's happening then, since it doesn't feel like an emergency enough to contact them sooner. But thank you for the suggestion!