I know you keep some of the details of what you go through from your mom and I understand this, I do the same.
Your pdoc doesn't take phone calls in between appointments.
I'm wondering if you can let her know it's urgent?
Are you feeling suicidal or as though you may self-harm?
If so, is this something you can tell her.
Do you feel you could tell her more if it means you can get help sooner?
Keep posting! Your threads are fine.

We're here to try to lend support.

WC