When I try and find help I mostly see "If you want to express emotion/ feel something/ express anger" but.. I just like the texture of fresh/ day old cuts.. I cannot just draw a red line on my body and feel it, because it has no texture.. I just love how the texture feels to the touch. I hate the pain, sometimes I hate the blood (if I am really bad I enjoy seeing the blood), I hate how it looks, I don't do it to feel something, I actually feel a lot, if I am anger I express my anger in exercise.. so what do I do to actually stop. And it almost never leaves scars, I just do it on top, 80% of the times I don't even draw blood, or I draw like a dot from it.. help?