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Originally Posted by ramonajones
Do they have any idea of the history of what you've been through?
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Maybe I should have added that the two therapists who asked this question were Pdoc1 and AbusivePDoc.....two previous bad therapy experiences.
I think I'm trying to work out whether they each were intentionally grooming me at that point.
Possible trigger:
Pdoc# - I liked him very much. I formed an attachment. But he was very unethical, often. He claimed to be Freudian. He admitted me inpatient once...he ran a women's group (among other things) with about seven women inpatients. He was telling us that fantasy is human and healthy. He pointed at us and said, "I've already f* you and you and you in my fantasies. It was great." Like, no harm done. I didn't hear any of the women complain about that being unethical, not me, not anyone who I talked to. Instead, it seemed to be a humorous and arousing atmosphere for most of us. I didn't know many things he said did were unethical at the time.
We probably talked about fantasies. Maybe it was ethical, maybe not. I can't remember.
AbusivePDoc, though. I can't remember what brought it up, honestly. What I remember is he asked me if I had sexual fantasies about him. What I remember for sure is he wanted details. He wanted to know what I wore (in the fantasy) and what we did. The thing is, i remember I didn't have any sexual fantasies about him. I remember him asking for details. I remember making up a scenario.
My mind is stuck on him wanting details. Would that ever be ethical?
I don't know why my mind is stuck here. He went on to do exploitive things. He lost his license.
I think I am trying to figure out if he was already trying to groom me at this point. I don't know. Why would that make whatever happened any better or worse? It probably doesn't but my mind is stuck here.