I've been having trouble motivating myself to do any type of "work" while at home.

I've been busy throughout the week and I am often gone from 6AM to around 7-8 PM on most weekdays. Because of this, when I am at home, I can't motivate myself to do anything other than game or stream anime or TV no matter how hard I try.

Even simple things like cooking a meal, shaving, or taking out the trash is hard for me. Speaking of trash, it was so bad that last week, half of my kitchen was piled full of trash because when my trash can got full, I had a bunch of Braums bags from shopping there that were thrown on the floor that I fill with trash instead. It took a fly and roach infestation to motivate me to do something about it and even then, it took me like 30 minutes to psyche myself into getting up and doing something.

I struggle to motivate myself to cook because I find it freaking boring. I would rather eat microwavable stuff or make a sandwich than cook a meal. I was trying to improve my cooking skills and motivation by buying a couple of boxes of Tuna Helper to cook, but I can't motivate myself to do anything with them.

Don't even get me started on my hygiene. I hate shaving because I have extremely coarse hair and sensitive skin which makes shaving a nightmare for me. I don't brush my teeth until they start hurting because I always forget to or lack the motivation to do so.

When I'm gone, I am the polar opposite; hard working, intelligent, and motivated. But as soon as I get home, it's like I stop giving a damn.

I wish I knew how to change but being an adult is too damn overwhelming.