how do you tell symptoms apart from each other

i have so many things going on

i can't tell whats going on

does that follow?

sometimes i cant tell if i am anxious, or if i am depressed

i cant tell if i am scared or if i am angry

i cant tell if i am worried or if i am happy

my feelings get discombobulated

i try really hard, i get really frustrated

i am reluctant to continue talking about my problems because of this

because i feel like i cant talk about my problems

i confuse people

i confuse myself

people get frustrated

i get frustrated

i cry

people stop talking to me

i am lost and scared with emotions feelings and things i don't understand

i have a lot of problems, thats all i know...

i just want to sort things out

but its a huge mess...

its overwhelming, i don't think i can do it

i dont think the professionals can do it either

i feel broken and dont think anyone can ever help put me back together again

not even all the kings men, poor humpty dumpty...

to be shattered into a million pieces, not even to recognize ones own self...

i just don't know what to do... i feel like i have tried, and tried, and tried...

i become obsessive, i have obsessed... and obsessed...

i have studied, and read.. and cried, and tried...

but i have not figured out anything but how broken i am

i am so numb, i don't know who i am anymore